Moving

I have decided that I am moving my blog over to wordpress - http://witchuptheroad.wordpress.com/
So if you wish to continue to read my blog, then please follow the link to the new blog
Thank you for all who have followed me or who have made comments :)

What I will be doing for Lent

When Lent comes around I often don't do anything, but this year I thought I should at least give it a go and see how it goes for the next 40 days.

What I am hoping to do:

• Pray
  I already pray each morning, but normally I rush through it and don't take that much time to think about what I am saying or praying about. I am also hoping to start praying at night as well.
• Meditate
  I used to love to meditate nearly every other day and then once the headaches started I couldn't focus myself to meditate, I couldn't sit still for long and just felt agitated. I am hoping to get back into meditating, even if that means doing Tai Chi each day, which I have found to be just like meditating.
• Give up sugar
  In my coffee, I am not going to go crazy and stop myself from having all types of sugared food because I like to take things slow which helps me to get used to one change and then I can add another change when I'm ready.
  I only have 1 teaspoon of sugar in my coffee, when a couple of years ago I didn't even have sugar in my tea or coffee but since changing to decaff I have found that adding the sugar makes it taste better. To help me get closer to having no sugar in my coffee I am going to change to sweetener as well.

Now I know what I am normally like when I tell myself I am going to be doing something similar to this, I normally fail within a week/2 weeks. Hopefully that wont happen this time and I can actually succeed.

Pretty little smudge sticks

They may not look the best but darn it they do they work very well.
Never have I made smudge sticks before and I have always wanted to but was slightly nervous to (not sure why, but that's just me..I get nervous for no reason at times).
The smudge stick is just simply sage from my garden pot, wanted to keep it simple but maybe next time I will add another herb to it. When wrapping the thread round the bundle, I'll sing and hum to it while thinking of the meaning why I am making these.

Versatile Blogger Award

I have seen these blog awards going round on other blogs and never received one until now. Thank you to witch of howling creek for nominating me for the Versatile Blogger Award *big grin*

Here are the associated rules:

• Thank the award-giver and link back to them in your post
• Share 7 things about yourself
• Pass this award along to 15 recently discovered blogs you enjoy reading
• Contact your chosen bloggers to let them know about the award

Seven things about me:

1. I love to write poetry and stories but never finish the stories which I have started
2. I love marmite
3. I get upset, sometimes cry, every time the licker gets killed in Resident Evil (film)
4. Gambit and Beast are my favourite characters from x-men
5. Beatlejuice, Lion King and the Lost Boys are a few of my favourite films
6. I couldn't watch any of the older series of Sherlock Holmes due to Jeremy Brett, I was always scared of him
7. I have another blog which is focused on beauty/books/health and weight (yay shameless plugging)

15 blogs:

1. Annika Garratt
2. Sy Calaelen
3. Black Fur, Black Wing
4. In The Arms of Mother Earth
5. Ivy on the Path
6. Leafshade
7. Lily Oak
8. Nefaeria
9. Priestess of Aset-Nuit
10. The Path of an Austrailian Solitary Witch
11. Wandering Soul
12. My Mommy The Pagan Warrior
13. Wandering in the Woods
14. Alison Leigh Lilly
15. Mind Body Spirit Odyssey

Fear

Around 2 in the morning I had the urge to do a reading for myself.
I have often talked about how I normally feel lost or stuck within my path, I was having that same feeling but this time it was confusion of how I could move forward with my path when these headaches I have had for so many years have put a halt on what I can do.

So with having the feeling of needing to do a reading I thought it would be a good time to see what I should be doing among all of this.
Basically the cards told me I needed to face up to my fears, to learn not to let my fear control me and remember that there are people around me who I can trust and ask for support.
The cards also mentioned my ancestors, that there was something that I hadn't done that was connected to them.
Two of my grandparents died when I was either not born or when I was too little to actually know what was going on.
I was around 8 when my other grandparents died and I understood that I would never see them again (in the physical form) but I am not sure if I actually grieved for them, and I feel that is why I am so upset about not being able to have that connection with spirit lately.

Before the headaches started to happen I remember that I read something about fear in the book The Celtic Shaman, John Matthews he had also added a meditation which helped you to face your fears, after I had read this a couple of times I was pretty sure I knew what I was doing and went in a meditation state to do just that. I remember that I had came out of the meditation pretty quick and thought I had faced some fear. A few days after the headaches started, at first they didn't really bother me but whenever I would start and do some sort of meditation, spirit work or any other practise they would get worse. Appear around the side of my temples and then move to the front of my forehead (or the third eye area), no pain killer, herbal medicine or any type of healing could help them to stop and they could last for days on end.

I was looking back at the notes of that meditation just to see if I could find what may have gone wrong with it, and I remembered that I didn't really protect myself when in the meditation in case anything tried to harm me while in there.
There is a part of me which doesn't want to face my fears, because they are somewhat a comfort to me and I am used to them being there. I am sometimes not good with changes, I often do get panic attacks due to an appointment being changed or if something happens in my daily routine so I wouldn't know how I will be with this change.
But my fears have become my crutches and I need to learn and remember how to walk without them.
I have mentioned before about this headache in the post Spirit Work, I still believe that there may be a spirit who is around me who may be influencing the headaches as well so I still need to work on that as well.

Facing your fears can be a challenge and difficult, it can take time to deal with them, if you feel that you can not deal with them on your own you can always go and talk with someone about them to help you through it.
Fear is a natural and normal feeling we have and it is ok to admit that we do have fears.