Its catch up time

Hello, hello! I know it has been a such a long time since I last posted in here and I apologise, I thought I had made a post about it in here as well as on YouTube, but apparently I didn't.

So, why did I stop posting blogs (and videos)?
I guess I needed the time away to clear my head and sort through some self issues and spiritual issues. Along with that there has been a huge family event which happened on 10th August, my sister gave birth to twins (boy and a girl). They are so beautiful and healthy and just full of life it is wonderful to finally have them here. Sadly there wont be any photos posted of them on here or anywhere else that I belong to, her wishes not mine.

If anyone has watched my videos you will probably know how annoying it is of me when I keep talking about my spiritual path, and not knowing the direction or what path it actually is etc. So this is the main reason why I took a step back, I needed time to re think about what it is that I actually wanted out of this path and it did really matter what it was called.
I was starting to read more books on my path and follow people who had a similar path but all the time the books, blogs, websites, videos etc. Kept telling me I shouldn't do this, I need to do that. It was slightly over whelming when you are just in the starting area of your path. The information seems to be for those who have had the experiences that they are talking about and it made me feel very little at one point and wonder if calling myself a hedge witch was the right thing to do.

I stopped reading that many books, took myself away from the Internet and actually concentrated on what I knew and could do. I do call myself a hedge witch, even if I haven't crossed the hedge yet, I am still learning, I need to sort through fears before I can even go anywhere else.
Although I am starting to journey, just small journeys but none the less its still a journey and its helping me to face fears.

On top of that I was also trying to deal with some self issues, accept myself, my body, the way I look etc. It is very difficult when you have basically had it put into your head that you are ugly and no one will want you or you will never get anywhere. I have believed that since I was about 13 I guess and it has taken me along time to start changing the way I think. So things are gonna start getting raw for me, emotions have already been flying everywhere.
Why don't you just go and see someone and talk about your feelings and get it done with there?
Because I have tried that before and it didn't really work. Yes it helped to step outside, and be more confident when outside and helped me to not have a panic attack, but it didn't really help me to feel welcome in my own body. That is something we all have to do on our own.

And on top of all that I have been creating a few products as well, which I will be posting on here very soon.
So its been pretty busy for me and still is. but hopefully I will be more updated from now on. :)