It has been 3 weeks since I have moved into my new place with my partner and as you can probably tell we have the Internet back so I will hopefully be doing more posts soon.
As I was growing up there was about 6 of us living in one house and then over the years with our partners moving in and then finding there own place, it went to about 9 people always coming in and out of the house, so there was always noise and someone walking in when you wanted to be alone. But now that there is only two of us living here it is still very strange as I keep expecting to have someone walk in on me when I am doing some writing or a video.
At the same time though it is so lovely to finally be able to be on our own and live our lives the way we wish to without disturbing anyone else. The area we live in is beautiful, they have a small walkway which has some trees next to a river, so I am not so upset about living the countryside as this little area seems just fine, it also has seats along the walkway so I sometimes just sit there and watch the river and just take everything in, it feels very peaceful.
I am starting to get back into my herbalism course now we have the Internet as my course is done online so I m looking forward to finally finishing that. I have also started to get back into some creative writing as well as cooking & baking. I feel so much more confident and at peace now I have the freedom to cook/bake whenever I want without feeling like I have to hurry.
I wont keep coming on here and updating each week how it is going here i know that isn't really interesting and not really needed. It is just because it is my first time moving out that I wanted to do a little update on that.
Hope you all are keeping well, I have a lot of catching up I need to do on here as well as YouTube!
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Thursday, 21 April 2011
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
Its catch up time
Hello, hello! I know it has been a such a long time since I last posted in here and I apologise, I thought I had made a post about it in here as well as on YouTube, but apparently I didn't.
So, why did I stop posting blogs (and videos)?
I guess I needed the time away to clear my head and sort through some self issues and spiritual issues. Along with that there has been a huge family event which happened on 10th August, my sister gave birth to twins (boy and a girl). They are so beautiful and healthy and just full of life it is wonderful to finally have them here. Sadly there wont be any photos posted of them on here or anywhere else that I belong to, her wishes not mine.
If anyone has watched my videos you will probably know how annoying it is of me when I keep talking about my spiritual path, and not knowing the direction or what path it actually is etc. So this is the main reason why I took a step back, I needed time to re think about what it is that I actually wanted out of this path and it did really matter what it was called.
I was starting to read more books on my path and follow people who had a similar path but all the time the books, blogs, websites, videos etc. Kept telling me I shouldn't do this, I need to do that. It was slightly over whelming when you are just in the starting area of your path. The information seems to be for those who have had the experiences that they are talking about and it made me feel very little at one point and wonder if calling myself a hedge witch was the right thing to do.
I stopped reading that many books, took myself away from the Internet and actually concentrated on what I knew and could do. I do call myself a hedge witch, even if I haven't crossed the hedge yet, I am still learning, I need to sort through fears before I can even go anywhere else.
Although I am starting to journey, just small journeys but none the less its still a journey and its helping me to face fears.
On top of that I was also trying to deal with some self issues, accept myself, my body, the way I look etc. It is very difficult when you have basically had it put into your head that you are ugly and no one will want you or you will never get anywhere. I have believed that since I was about 13 I guess and it has taken me along time to start changing the way I think. So things are gonna start getting raw for me, emotions have already been flying everywhere.
Why don't you just go and see someone and talk about your feelings and get it done with there?
Because I have tried that before and it didn't really work. Yes it helped to step outside, and be more confident when outside and helped me to not have a panic attack, but it didn't really help me to feel welcome in my own body. That is something we all have to do on our own.
And on top of all that I have been creating a few products as well, which I will be posting on here very soon.
So its been pretty busy for me and still is. but hopefully I will be more updated from now on. :)
So, why did I stop posting blogs (and videos)?
I guess I needed the time away to clear my head and sort through some self issues and spiritual issues. Along with that there has been a huge family event which happened on 10th August, my sister gave birth to twins (boy and a girl). They are so beautiful and healthy and just full of life it is wonderful to finally have them here. Sadly there wont be any photos posted of them on here or anywhere else that I belong to, her wishes not mine.
If anyone has watched my videos you will probably know how annoying it is of me when I keep talking about my spiritual path, and not knowing the direction or what path it actually is etc. So this is the main reason why I took a step back, I needed time to re think about what it is that I actually wanted out of this path and it did really matter what it was called.
I was starting to read more books on my path and follow people who had a similar path but all the time the books, blogs, websites, videos etc. Kept telling me I shouldn't do this, I need to do that. It was slightly over whelming when you are just in the starting area of your path. The information seems to be for those who have had the experiences that they are talking about and it made me feel very little at one point and wonder if calling myself a hedge witch was the right thing to do.
I stopped reading that many books, took myself away from the Internet and actually concentrated on what I knew and could do. I do call myself a hedge witch, even if I haven't crossed the hedge yet, I am still learning, I need to sort through fears before I can even go anywhere else.
Although I am starting to journey, just small journeys but none the less its still a journey and its helping me to face fears.
On top of that I was also trying to deal with some self issues, accept myself, my body, the way I look etc. It is very difficult when you have basically had it put into your head that you are ugly and no one will want you or you will never get anywhere. I have believed that since I was about 13 I guess and it has taken me along time to start changing the way I think. So things are gonna start getting raw for me, emotions have already been flying everywhere.
Why don't you just go and see someone and talk about your feelings and get it done with there?
Because I have tried that before and it didn't really work. Yes it helped to step outside, and be more confident when outside and helped me to not have a panic attack, but it didn't really help me to feel welcome in my own body. That is something we all have to do on our own.
And on top of all that I have been creating a few products as well, which I will be posting on here very soon.
So its been pretty busy for me and still is. but hopefully I will be more updated from now on. :)
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